What should one answer when you are confronted with the question of “How are you?” When there is turmoil in the mind / pain in the body and sorrow in ones soul.. what should be the answer?? That is my question to my mind and I am probing for the answers…

It is very easy in life to pin point a mistake to some one else and feel successful about it and there are also times that whatever you have done.. to prove you are right… to understand a miscommunication.. one still feels lost and hopeless and tries to free oneself from the shackles of pain and anxiety… but alas I really doubt if in so much thought/ pain and sorrow.. one is ever successful to overcome these thoughts… in the end you feel like a mockery… you feel like a fool perched on a glorious throne of madness and chaos… that is how one often feels when you are let down by a dear one.... could be anybody...just anybody whom we conside close to our heart..

A simple communication/ a gross misunderstanding/ clashing egos and pain about ones future…. A bag of mixed emotions.. not from one side but from both the sides.. results in incoherent talks and discussions.. at the end of it all one feels.. is it really fruitful?

Some times the question of “what are living for ???” strikes more than once and at the end of a debacle.. my mind still does not have an answer and all effort looks futile…. What I fail to understand in all this is – how far have we progressed as humans..can one person be more far fetched in thought and action than an another?.. I fail to perceive such a situation because how much ever one contemplates to look beyond time .. if the other half.. bitter or better as you may term it… is not going to perceive like you.. the effort is futile and reduced to ash…

Incidents leave an imprint in the minds of those who value the right to their living in this world. As complicated as this may sound is how complicated a human mind works.. sometimes.. i wonder.. .. are we in this matrix of emotions and thoughts because we love it.. definitely not and may be yes....

Today my father.. my appus as we fondly call him is having half his mind on some issues which are eating him up... Was all his sacrifice worth it??? People stand up and talk to him because he has always believed that silence will do him good... Does silence really do good...

One side of my brain does want to believe that all this discussion is futile.. but just the other side wants to debate that not all battle is won with mere silence....

As i am trying to collate my expressions/ thoughts/ emotions.. just a line comes to my mind..
" What is life full of care.. we have no time to stand and stare"

With this closing thought.. i end my entourage at the moment.. with a promise that i shall be adding on it everyday....